perspective

the grizwalds busers went on vacation to chicago for the past week.  it was lovely in every way.  you may hear more about the trip later, but for now, i wanted to share my current head space.  

tonight as i was cooking dinner, a thought struck me.  and i think that, quite possibly, i may not be alone in this experience.  

the week before we left, i was feeling like i would literally burst if i had to wash one more load of laundry, pack one more lunch, or make one more dinner.  (and you all know that this momma was coming off of a dinner disaster!)

i think the brain is wired like that that.  it holds on until right before a "break" and allows us to function at the capacity that is necessary.  regardless of the frequency of our our breaks or the length of the break, the brain anticipates it when it knows it is coming.  

this is how i felt right before we left…  like i didn't have much more in me to give.

and then we went off on a little trip and the mundane elements of life were set aside.  routine went out the window and flexible and impromptu became our go to guides.  and it felt good.  i loved being able to jump into a taxi and meet a friend here or walk a few blocks and catch a sight there.  it was pure bliss.  

and as sunday rolled into monday, i suddenly felt a shift.  as our vacation was coming to a close, i felt a longing for routine.  the things that felt oppressive only a week prior felt comforting and good.

and so tonight, with a refreshed mind, i made cioppino for my family and i dare say that i did it with a smile and without an ounce of grump.  it felt good to be back in that mental space.  

i like my life.  i like what we do and how we do it (most of the time).   while the time away was amazing, being back in "my life" felt comfortable.

and there is nothing like being snuggled in my very own bed, nestled between 1-3 girlies preparing them for bed.  the day is done and while i know that tomorrow i will do it all over again, i am thankful for the day.  the one before us is over and the one ahead is new and fresh- just waiting for us to grab onto it.

i know this feeling won't last forever.  i know tired or irritated or bored might grab a hold of me long before i would like it to.  but for now, i will celebrate the moment of claiming "refreshed".  i want to celebrate this perspective that i am feeling right now.

and to all the peeps that i saw that brought joy to me over the past week- thank you, thank you, thank you!  and to those that made coming home a place i long to be- thank you, thank you, thank you.

sweet dreams.