Saturday, December 26, 2015

joy delivered

a mother remembers the details of her babies' births.  tonight, as i bake a cake and wrap gifts, i think about the labor pains/anticipation of this little girl.  it is hard to believe that 8 years have gone by. my mind remembers it like it was last night.

and yet so much has happened, changed and transformed this little bug into the wonderful girl that she is today.  my Christmas baby.

sitting in Chritmas Eve service, thinking about mary and the pain she experienced riding on a donkey...  it was a real out-of-body experience for me, personally.  i remember listening to our pastor at western springs bapritst re-telling the accounts of the mother of jesus and feeling a baby move in my own womb.  it changed Christmas for me.  something out of reach, out of comprehension...  suddenly became a very imaginable birth story.  but alas, my due on Christmas baby, held tight to the womb THAT night.

i had been on bed rest for months.  my mid-wife, my husband, and even myself anticipated that she would break free weeks earlier.  but baby girl held fast to the womb.

and then, the night after Christmas, she broke free.

and in this world, my d, has been free.  she marches to the beat of her own drum.  she loves fiercely.  she is loyal- never one to hold a grudge.  she embraces with her whole heart.  she feels.  she appreciates.  she deep-belly laughs.  she asks tough questions.  she analyzes people with her heart.  she can be wounded to the core.  she can be rejected by you or hurt by you, but still sees you in your best light.  baby girls is competitive if she thinks she can win, able to step aside and celebrate you if she can't.

she has a frustrated side.  she wants to be just like her older sister and wants to be admired by her baby sister.

her giggle will capture your heart and her "smiling eyes" will capture your soul.

d-bugs...  you have won our hearts over and momma, daddy, ellie and pops celebrate the joy that you posses.  it spills into our home, into our lives and into your world.  people see you and they gravitate towards it.













it's hard to believe that we have had 8 years of you.  i cherish the moments when you were little.  you always had us in suspense of what you would do next.  today, is no different.

we can't wait to see where this world takes you...  what mountains you climb, what obstacles you overtake and how joy guides your heart.

happy birthday, d-bugs the baby of the world.  we love you to pieces.  your birth story is just the beginning.  i know it is going to be your guiding force.  YOU are a challenger...  just like me.  and you will take this world by storm.  i can't wait to see your story unfold.